It would take many words to describe precisely who I am.

The internet is interesting. You can’t really get to know someone deeply just by what they post online, even if they’re terrifyingly transparent. Words fall short. Photos fall short. They can show you what someone considers worth sharing, but it can’t share with you why they’ve arrived at that conclusion. It doesn’t tell you who they really are.

I hope my writings will reflect the ideal that I strive for in my clearest moments. But the truth is, what you’ll see here on this website is a polished glimpse. It’s not the pressure of the moment. It’s the set dining table and not the messy kitchen inseparably lurking behind the scenes and making the meal possible.

I’m extremely human, just like you. Some days I totally suck. I don’t always live up to what I know in my heart is best. Some days I’m on fire for the Lord, I feel His presence deep in my bones, and I want to share His goodness with everybody. I’m like the farmer who found the treasure in the field, but instead of selling all he has to buy that field and keep the treasure to himself, he wants to tell everybody else about the field so they can experience the treasure themselves. Other days I’m impatient, irritable, and just want to be alone.

I’ve always valued the truth. Even when I was young and wild, the things I did carried the blessing of that desire for what’s real, what’s true. I think at a certain level we can all discern what’s superficial, and are in some way repulsed by it. As I’ve matured, that same drive has eventually culminated in its inevitable conclusion: it has led me straight to the cross.

I live in Southern California. It’s just after 1am as I write this. February 17th, 2026. It happens to be raining outside. At the exact moment that I was typing the last sentence of the previous paragraph, a flash of lightening struck. The first lightening I’ve seen around here in awhile. Seconds later, as I finished the sentence, I heard the thunder.

The Psalmist asks, “What is man that You think of him, and a son of man that You are concerned about him?” I’m not sure why God has chosen to set me apart. One question you’ll see my wrestle with at some point in my writings is, why doesn’t everybody see God? Surely it’s His heart for us that none would perish. Is it because they are choosing not to see Him?

I want to share what thinking and living looks like for me, with the hopes that, in reading the field-notes of a fellow solider in this life that often feels like a battle, someone else would be encouraged. I know many times I’ve felt down, and reading the reflections of another man have helped me to keep walking just enough additional steps to see God again in my own experience.

I apologize for when my thoughts are disordered. For years I’ve just written insights on napkins, tear-outs, the Notes app on my phone, text messages to myself, the back of scrap paper from the office, etc. One regret I have is that over the years I haven’t exercised the muscle of structured writing nearly as often as I should’ve. But, hey, it is what it is.

I’m not sure what direction this website will take. It may never be read by anyone except my wife and a few close friends or family members. For now I just want to start getting some of my most pressing thoughts written out. There’s a clarifying process for me in doing so, and it seems to help when I write as if someone will read it.

I’ll write out the full story of my life eventually, and post a link to it here so anyone who is curious can read. For now, feel free to navigate to the Writings page if you’d like to explore my thoughts and get to know me better.